So recently, I got a time capsule. Which is a nice way to say that I finally repatriated the stuff I had left behind temporarily when I went home from abroad in 2012. Altogether, I have moved from one country to the next a handful of times, last earlier this year. And everytime, I find myself staggering (often literally) under the amount of stuff that I possess.
I have heard of decluttering; I went through a period earlier this year of, because I was going to move, watching minimalism videos on the internet. These videos don’t help. I watch other people declutter, but I don’t feel like the amount of stuff I have compares to what they are dealing with. Moving between countries every few years, I have already shed a fair amount of stuff. I don’t buy a lot of clothes and I give them away when I don’t wear them anymore. I use my shoes until the soles have holes in them and I resole the ones that can be. I give books away when I have read them. I use the crockery that I own, the art material that I own. But yes, I do accumulate bits and bobs. I have trouble separating myself from things that were given to me, or t-shirts that I bought at concerts but that I’ve stopped wearing, or my favourite old shirts that I used to wear a lot etc. I have what I call my incompressible.
And my incompressible is heavy.
And my incompressible is growing.
But try as I might to reduce it, there is only so far I can dent it.
Example: I am an avid photographer. Ask anyone and they’ll tell you how mad I drive them when I got on a photoshooting binge and stop every few metres to shoot. No, my pictures are not necessarily brilliant, though there are a lot I am very proud of. Now I hear you say, what’s the problem with taking pictures? They don’t take up space, just buy a big external hard-drive and you’re sorted. Well, you may recall a post I wrote back when I discovered pinhole photography. Since then, I have moved to shooting instant, then in 120 format, then in last year I bought myself a 1980’s SLR. But the thing is, I shoot in film. I like film. Very much. I like the unpredictability of it, the lucky shot that I get, and also the getting it wrong. I get a lot wrong, and I have films which are not very good and others that are pretty rubbish, but I am a hoarder so I keep them all. Also, I now have a half a dozen cameras.
Repeat the pattern for art material, then for notebooks and journals and sketchbooks.
How much of that is clutter? How does one define clutter? Should I for instance, discard my developed films since I have most of them scanned? I look at minimalism and I think, oh yes, sure I’d love to have (by choice, btw, not because I can’t afford more) only 7 sets of clothes (shirt-bra-knickers-socks), one skirt, one pair of trousers, one pair of shoes. Sure, who wouldn’t like the simplicity of it? Who wouldn’t like the amount of money saved by not buying clothes or shoes? But the people in these videos who tell you, have one good quality pen and a good quality notebook to journal in (somehow, journalling is very important), what do they do with their notebooks once they’re filled up? Where are these stored?
I understand that the idea behind reducing your clutter is reducing the mental charge that comes with storing the things you own. I appreciate that every time I tidy my desk. It is nice to have the space, it is nice for everything to have its own place. And in times when I am confined with my stuff, I do feel like I need some of it to go. But I haven’t figured out how to part with a lot of stuff, even when it’s old and useless. The best that I can try and come up with is looking at it in terms of the death-cleaning thing and think, someone will have to clear that after me, I shoud try and make that easier. So now that I do have my stuff back, it might be time to go back through everything and say, okay, if I don’t use it and someone else could, why keep it. Is this the right question to ask?